Animal Spirits and Familiars: Loyal To The End

As I my watch my beloved feline familiar Num Nums fight for her life, I can’t help but be humbled by her unyielding loyalty to her owners (me & my family.) Actually, we are more than that we are her family. Some people have a hard time grasping this (mostly the non-animal oriented) but they love and trust us just as much as we do them. For thousands of years, humans had always embraced and accepted animals to their homes and lives. Right now I can’t help but wonder what will happen to Num Nums once she passes. I was told by a roman catholic acquaintence of mine once that animals have no souls and don’t go to heaven, yet the research I’ve done over the years have proven otherwise.

Ancient Egyptians believed animals protected us even in death. They were worshipped and revered for their gifts, immortalized in temples and monuments, and in paintings and texts. Most ancient North American tribes like the Aztecs, Mayans and most Native American tribes today believe we can call on animal spirits for guidance and inner strength. In Hopi and Navajo rituals they call on certain animal spirits to cure certain ailments and illnesses. Many of them have had success curing their people too. How do you explain this?

Pagans believe in Familiars, who are ancient spirits or elders that take the form of an animal to guide and serve a young witch in their magickal workings. This ancient folklore was brought to the mainstream with the Harry Potter Series and shows like Sabrina The Teenage Witch. Though I’m not a devout pagan I do embrace certain customs this one in particular. I do feel Nums Nums is my familiar she is very protective of me and my family. She has proven herself on several occasions and now as she holds on for us. She has been a part of my family for sixteen years and would always accompany me during my readings my clients loved her; never had a problem with her being around. I love you Num Nums and I will never forget you. I take comfort in knowing that you can be summoned whenever I need you.

Love and Light xoxo




Sex and Tarot: The Real Nitty Gritty

lovers 001I’ve been reading tarot for over a decade now and I’ve pretty much tried all styles of reading my cards. I have all sorts of books on love and romance tarot readings but there was one part of that always seemed taboo in the tarot world…sex. Yes! That three-lettered word under everyone’s breaths when it comes to relationships. A lot of my clients never outright asked doing love readings, yet it would always come up in the cards. What is he/she like in bed? What are his/her deepest desires? Will I satisfy him/her? etc. So I began to practice spreads that concetrate solely on sexy time and I have to admit my results were quite interesting. Here’s some helpful keywords when deciphering the suits for sex readings:

 Wands:  adventurousness, exhibitionism, outdoor sex, friends with benefits, group sex, threesomes

Cups: emotions, making love, pregnancy, sex addict, drunk/high sex, sweet/pillow talk, fantasies

Pentacles: sex for money, sexual security, sex-related work, masterbation, healthy sex life

Swords: sexual manipulation, jealousy, infidelity, impotence, fetishes, rough sex, bondage, S&M

***Major Arcana cards are usually important messages and secrets about your sex life being brought to light. If one shows up in a spread PAY ATTENTION!!!***

Recommended Reading: Sex & Tarot by Toni Allen

Goddesses of The Divine Flame

For years, I’ve been dreaming of the same person an old friend of mine. Even when I don’t want to think about him there he is in my dreams, and in weird signs wherever I go. My best friend used to think I was exaggerating until she experienced it for herself. I always thought of him as the one that got away. I was crazy about him my senior year, but we were such good friends, I was afraid I’d make things weird if I told how I felt. So I kept it to myself, by the time the summer came I finally built the guts to come clean only to discover he moved suddenly. I was crushed.

I spent the next several years trying to find him. My two best friends sympathized with me for a while, but then got sick of me talking about him. They even went as far as to say I was obsessed…maybe I was, but they had no idea what I was going through. I was dreaming of him once a week at the very least, and some of the dreams where of him and I in a different lifetime. So I went to a psychic, and she told I shared several lifetimes with him. Which I believed because when I first met I felt a real sense of familiarity something I never felt with anyone before, especially with a guy, I was super shy and ignored by the male population, yet he was sweet and friendly from the start. We instantly hit it off.

Exactly, ten years to the day we last saw each other, and just when I gave up my search for him. I get a message on Myspace. Apparently, one of the pages I friended was him. I was shocked and so was he. He explained he’s back in his native country and has a son. We’ve been in contact on and off since. I thought that now that we are in touch the haunting dreams and visions would stop; they haven’t.  I thought I was losing my mind. Then something amazing happened…I found out about the twin flame/soul connections.

In my “How To Uncover Your Past Lives” book  the late lightworker Ted Andrews explains: “the twin soul is literally the other half of our soul. We each have only one twin, and generally after being split the two went their separate ways, incarnating over and over to gather human experience before coming back together. Ideally, this happens in both of their last lifetimes on the planet so they can ascend together.” This got my wheels turning. I wanted to learn more about this. So the research began. I googled twin souls/flames to see what came up and that’s when I came across the Collapsing Duality website which gave signs of a twin flame connection. I was astounded, I related to nearly all of them. I read some of the stories on the page which were very similar to mine. I wasn’t losing it after all , but rather experiencing something phenomenal. Even still with all the sweet that came with this revelation the bitter was never far behind.  The twin flame journey can be very isolating and lonely, and most people don’t understand it unless they are going through it themselves.

Then I saw on the CD site they had a Facebook group I was apprehensive, but joined anyway. It was the best thing I ever did. I met really wonderful people who knew what I was going through and didn’t pass judgement. Some of the group members helped me to understand my natural gifts and how to utilize them toward oneness with my twin. Later on another group was born Twin Soul Unity or as it’s called now Expressions ame jumelle d’amour which means twin soul expressions of love. There I network with very gifted ladies who are card readers, empaths, clairvoyant, and above all great listeners. I learned so much from these wonderful women. They’ve become my friends, confidants and my life line. Just want to say to Rebekah, Carina, Missey, Janine, Lynn and all the others I forgot to mention I feel truly blessed to have come across you all. Chas xx

***Rebekah I wish you all the best on your upcoming journey and I’ll be here when you get back. Can’t wait for you to share your adventures with me and the rest of the group. I love you dearly. xxx*** 


Jack of All Trades, Master of…My Own Damn Life!

Well, I had a productive weekend as far as my band’s concerned. We wrapped up our first music video yesterday which was very exciting  yet exhausting. I never knew what a grueling process it is. My band mates and I  spent nearly eight hours filming on location in Brooklyn Bridge Park in DUMBO (Formerly known as Downtown Brooklyn).  I can still feel the chill of the New York harbor in my bones, but it was worth it we had a blast. People came by asking questions and spectating. It didn’t bother us in the least these strangers were actually very supportive of the arts, which wasn’t surprising to me in a neighborhood full of trendy yuppies.  After weeks of preparation it’s finally over and I can continue on with my writing projects. Also, I’m happy to announce my stint in “Insomtopia” is over. I am back to my normal sleeping pattern thank the good Lord.  I actually had an Epiphany which made me find the root of the problem and once I realized the source I began to sleep again. Ahh how sweet it is. 

Okay, so I decided to post my good tidings on Facebook and I get a comment from an old high school acquaintance Gigi. She comments and quote: “Aren’t you just a Jack of all Trades”.  Now for some reason this bothered me, for I know all too well the sarcastic ending to that phrase is “Master of None”.  I began to ponder do I come off as a flighty, scatterbrain person that jumps from one thing to another. Because that so isn’t the case. I put a 100% to all my projects. So I asked her what she meant by that. She never answered which further infuriated me. Why did I even care? I guess it caught me off guard. I spoke to family and friends regarding the comment. Some said it sounded like this person was envious of me and others claimed she was paying me a compliment. So I drew my own conclusion calling it a 50/50 (half compliment, half insult). 

What really gave me clarity on this was watching the movie “Pursuit of Happyness”.  Chris (Will Smith’s character) is playing basketball with his son and tells him “Listen don’t ever let anyone stop or discourage you from pursing your dreams. Because those people are just too afraid to make it happen. Most people are scared and they’ll put you down don’t let ’em!”  That was powerful for me especially when I finally got a response from Gigi about  her comment she responded with “I wish I had the time to do what I want.” That for me was confirmation that she was unhappy and decided to take a cheap shot at me. I never responded.  I just left it alone and made a promise to myself next time I hear that from a person I’ll come back with: “Yeah, that’s right I am a Jack of all Trades and Master of my own damn life!” Take that!

Confessions of an Insomniac

I know I’ve been away for awhile. Between promoting my band, novel revisions and a hectic home life it’s a miracle I even have time to blog. All this sadly has landed in me in the dark realm I call “Insomtopia” the place where sleepless drones go when they’re juggling a million and one things.How I landed here again? My best guess is worry and apprehension. Been racking my brain about so much stuff sleep went to the back burner, and now I’m in deep trouble.

Currently, I’m functioning on five hours of sleep in an interval of three days, which is definitely by medical standard no bueno. The luggage under my eyes is beginning to channel that of Christian Bale in the “The Machinist.” I’ve tried everything to get back to my normal sleep routine, but it’s quickly becoming a losing battle. I don’t want to have to resort to pills because I know all too well what a slippery slope that is. Hopefully, it’ll get better, I’m remaining optimistic, for the most part…Stay Tuned!


Pagan Pride Day Festival 2011

Merry Meet WordPress, I attended the festival last weekend in Battery Park with some friends and family. This is my third year in a row, and it’s always a nice, welcoming atmosphere. The vendors never disappoint. They had all sorts of neat stuff for sale jewelry, ritual tools, pagan t-shirts & stickers, candles, herbs and assorted incense. My favorite product had to be the handmade soaps, they smelled amazing.

Workshops were given on tarot, reiki healing, intro to santeria, chakras/crystals as well as arts & crafts for the kids. There were also tarot advisers and a real gypsy giving readings. Another highlight was two performances by the lovely belly dancers from the temple of Jehan. They were a beautiful and friendly group of ladies who really interacted with the crowd. They even grabbed my little sister and cousins and danced with them, which was super cool.

Although I was disappointed my friends at the Wiccan Family Temple didn’t do the closing harvest circle this year I still had a great time. Can’t wait for next year blessed be )O(

#2 to cross off my Bucket List: Janet #1’s Concert

One of my fondest memories as a young girl was watching Janet Jackson’s videos on MTV (the good ol’days before all the crappy reality shows lol). I own every album from Control to #1’s. She is an amazing performer and actress who influenced me in so many ways. And after years of trying to get tickets to her fast-selling shows, I did it! The NYC shows for her #1’s tour was sold out, but I managed to get two tickets to see her at the Mohegan Sun Casino in Connecticut.

The trip up to New England was a four hour-long ride on a crowded Greyhound bus it was worth it. When we finally arrived at the large casino complex, I couldn’t exit that bus any quicker. The casino was beautiful filled with authentic Native American paintings, sculptures and furnishings. One sculpture, in particular, caught my eye that I had to take a picture of it. It was made from iridescent blown glass. It was simply exquisite. Anyhow, after taking in the wonderful ambience Mohegan Sun had to offer, then I made a beeline to the arena.

First place I hit was the souvenir stand bought myself an authentic tour t-shirt and hat. I headed to my seat, which had a perfect view of the stage. The opening act was an adorable group of tweens called “Mindless Behavior” though they lip-synched most of their performance, their choreography was on point. Then they stage exploded Janet rose from the stage floor opening with “Feedback.”

Wow she’s in the greatest shape I’ve ever seen her. The silver latex costume fit her perfect frame just right every man in the audience was drooling including my boyfriend lol. She performed all her hits, did a ballad medley, a video montage of her movie roles and closed the show with a tribute to her late brother Michael with “Together Again.” The show was a perfect 10. Janet after 25 years you’re still as nasty as ever love ya Miss J!!!

Scratch off #1 on my Bucket List: Seeing Sade live in Concert

After so many years of listening to her albums, I finally went to see my idol Sade in concert. Man, was that an amazing show I remember tearing up sitting in anticipation waiting for her to come on. Her music got me through so much heartache and put me at ease when I was stressed seeing her in the flesh performing for me and the other thousands of fans at Nassau Coliseum seemed surreal.

She sounded and looked great her band was on point a very talented group of musicians. The show was everything I expected and much more so worth the two hundred bucks I spent. She played all her hits: Soldier of Love, Smooth Operator, Kiss of Life, By Your Side, and more. However, I was waiting for one song, in particular, THE SONG when she closed the show with Sweetest Taboo everyone began clearing out, but I waited. I knew she was going to disappoint me. Myself and other diehard fans stood behind chanting “Cherish the Day.”

Five minutes passed, but I didn’t lose hope then the stage went black, and everyone began screaming including me the stage lit up with a skyscraper props, and there she was standing on a 25-foot platform in a red satin Versace dress and performed my favorite song a great end to the best concert I ever attended. I highly recommend seeing her. You won’t regret it trust me!